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once told to never stop typing or putting pen to papyrus. intend to follow up on that instruction. still need to get that degree. still need to apply for financial aid. transfer, negotiate existing financial tirades. budget. invest in the stock market. invest in anything. boast about failures and be humble about success??

he who boasts will not endure, therefore, to boast of a failure will cease to exist. humility about the results we desire may yield desired results in the future.

Four gifts the Hero may achieve as present by Joseph Campbell: Father Atonement, Sacred Marriage, Apotheosis, Elixir Theft.

Of course, each hero must undergo a series of psychological tests in order to attain any of these. Elixir Theft is like the bronze of these, but still worthwhile. Yet, the other three are still highly desirable.

Must improve on organizational skills. Maybe. Exile still lingers.

Feeling pretty ignorant and stupid, yet, my capacity to play basketball has increased. Nimrod was a dumb shit yet he became a great warrior. Life is more than money yet Oscar Wilde admitted that after a while he knew that that was the only thing that mattered in life. So...who is most important? God, woman, or money? All three are very imperative to a man's existence.

Yet, each dollar bill is marked with the words that it is legal tender for all debts public and private. And the desire to rid ourselves of debt lingers highly on our to-do list. It seems the two desires are very contradictory if not conflicting. It's as though we stumbled upon another forbidden fruit in this paradise that we've been granted. To be able to have anything you want, yet to be willing to sacrifice for it. Once read that I can have anything I want, I just can't have everything I want. Yet, freedom from want seems to be a good resolution. There is usually a time when my space and freedom is impeded and submission to this higher authority is imminent.

This lonely savage just cannot figure it out at this moment in time. his capacities for generativity and self-absorption are limited since he is in the process of mastering solitude and intimacy. Of course, this maturity game was presented by Erik Erikson and may be up for debate. Beauty is sought after and yields to great delight.

Santa Claus. Saint Nicolaus. Travels the world in a reindeer led sleigh. No money down. Provides toys and miracles to children everywhere. And! On limited resources. How could a mythological character be so resourceful with scarce materials? Maybe there's something in the northern lights. Aurora borealis magic?

Something about diligence may provide a man with a house. Must research those lines more deliberately. Land is for sale all across the county. Yet, the meek shall inherit the earth. Yet, it has once been said that land is a good investment. After all, who can stand without land?

So, it's been a good spiel so far but the words just don't glitter off the page like they once did. Like, all it is to me anymore is words and spaces. Yet, persistance can wield the crown of life.

peace.